Where have I been

I often check my page and re-read everything I typed; I catch my mistakes. Geez!
I went back to school and finished my first semester.  Huge accomplishment! Berkeley College Online to be precise.  My GPA 3.83 Wepa ! Fashion Marketing and Merchandising.

Emtional Rollercoaster

My post op surgery days have been extremely hard for me. I'm not talking about pain or discomfort, in which I do have them on and off.  I can handle that part of the process. Its truly emotional, the fat woman in me wants to indulge in everything I can not have.  At the stage of where I am at, if I eat regular food it will destroy me and to the hospital I go.  Of course, I'm trying to prevent that at all cost.

I also have my monthly friend that comes dressed in red once a month. My hormones are at its peak these days. I want to cry, dance, laugh, and cry again.

"There is no turning back at this point!" says my inner self. My outer layer screams I KNOW!

I figured let me blog alittle while I get my hair done. My mother had been my cheerleader today,   like I said "I'm going down!" Mary J. voice.

December 24th es Noche Buena cono!

And...... I'm the sour puss of the night.  I called a friend of the family, for she has the same surgery as me. She gave me support.  I need it.

Feliz Noche Buena

Starting Weight : 340
Current Weight:   320
(8 days Post Operation)

My High and My Lows , Time Travel through my Yo-Yo Diets

340 and Counting Down

My Mother, Niece and I

A Day After Gastric Bypass Surgery

December 17, 2015 was an exciting yet nerve racking day for this Hefty Little Mother. It was a step forward to a healthier lifestyle for me.  It took me countless diet, exercises, and even starvation to realize that my eating problem was bigger then me.  It took five years to be in the state of mind and consider surgery as my tool to finally loose the weight and keep it off.  I have a boy and a girl, that I love to death, they are my everything.  They were watching their mother get bigger and bigger, and inside it was breaking my soul apart. If I continue this road, how much am I going to weigh?

I grew to become 340 lbs that highest I've ever been.  The lowest I've been after diet and exercise has been 200 and then I stop and go back. I love, love food and the portions I was eating weren't fit for one person. I was eating for three people.

On March 12, 2015, I was struck by a car crossing the street.  I was going home to fetch my Bose system to be able to work out at my work place gym.  Music and working out for me is a plus. I was excited, This time I was really ready for it.  This accident put me into the worst funks ever.  I had damage on  left knee (the good knee, I called it). My right knee was always the problem, I found a way to over look it and train myself to healing it with exercise.  What a funk, I just ate, ate and ate some more, it was soothing for me. That burger with bacon, cheese, and fries was life for me. Like I said, I wasn't seeing the bigger picture.

My knees where totally giving up on me, this time I felt my whopping 340 lbs, that I was gently putting on. My back was a mess, my sleeping patterns were becoming less functional.  My soaring was getting louder for the fatigue I would feel after huge meals. No energy level what so ever.

I believe in higher being. I pray to God, Jesus Christ and La Virgin de Guadalupe. They have been my streetlight through this wicked world. I've always embraced who God made me to be and why he chose me to be in this body and earth. Your soul is what drives you to your divine nature.

I've always been a fat girl, since I can tell in the mirror or what people around me would call me. You know Maria "The Fat One."  Even my family had that nickname La Gorda. Yes, I know i'm fat, yet why do you have to remind me. Are you not happy with yourselves? No Fat person likes to be called names, people do it anyways.

I look deeper into a persons's being and understand them for who they are.  We are all of a master plan to keep this world in a total evolution.  With that thought, I start on a new journey with different views.

Bariatric Surgery the Beginning of a New Me ...

Hello!

Today embarks and I'm a embracing a new way of eating and finally viewing my mirror and watching the pounds melting us. That's my vision, my own future unfolding.

The process

Making a required Bergen Laparoscopy and Bariatic Associates meeting. My chose of doctor was Dr. Strain, 97 Engle Street, Englewood, NJ 07631.

Reaching and getting in contact with a prior patient that has done the procedure. (This will help you learn their story and why they chose to use bariatric surgery for a everyday tool)

Office visit to get all the necessary paperwork, Following all instructions for my insurance requisites NJ Horizon Direct 10.

1. Obtain letter(s) of medical necessity (primary/specialists)
2. Mental health clearance
3. Nutrition Clearance
4. 3 month medically supervised wight loss program (nutritionist) 
5. Preoperative testing 
6. Medical clearance (primary)

Once your requirements are completed, please note that all results should be forward to your pertaining doctor office's for a tentative surgery date. 

My surgery date December 17, 2015.

The struggle of writing my thoughts

Where have I've been through all these years? Lost in my own mind that I can not create or no one is reading my entries.  I read an acquaintance entry a long the lines of Poetry and who is reading. I reminded myself of my poetry/writing/thoughts and if I don't post; who reads?

Hefty Little Mother

I've been a Fat Girl all my life, I turned that Fat Girl - into a Hefty Little Mother - with that said. silence has been a key for my thoughts to speak.

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